Today I’d like to ask that you continue to pray for good sleep. I am finding that the moment my head hits the pillow, whether during the day or last thing at night, my mind fills up with thoughts and ideas about the future. I am pleased to be in a place where I can start to think about the future, but perhaps when I’m trying to sleep is not the best time to do it! Of course, I am taking practical steps too.
Physically I am doing well, even though most of the last week has been about adjusting to being home. There has not been much I feel I’ve had to adjust to mentally, but the many low-energy moments I’ve had (late starts, long naps, early nights) seem to suggest that there has been some adjustment going on under the surface. Despite this, I seem to be walking faster and handling the stairs more confidently, certainly when coming down.
Obviously all of this is within the home environment; I am getting out of the house at least once a day, but usually the trips are brief, to familiar environments. As I start to venture out again, it would be great to be able to do so reasonably confidently and comfortably, without the physical side effects I have experienced every now and then over the last few weeks.
This afternoon, I am getting back to swimming for the first time since leaving the hospital, and thus the first time without any therapists. It is a small step, I know, but to us it feels rather… auspicious I think is the word! Joel is looking forward to coming with us for the first time, which is great because it means that once he has seen how to help me, we will be able to go just the two of us in future, if we ever have need to. Other exercises are re-starting again this week, too.
At the weekend I had the privilege of re-meeting someone I haven’t seen since I was a toddler, who has been praying with us from the very early days. She’ll soon be jetting back to Pakistan where I knew she had been asking people to pray for me, thousands of miles away, but until this weekend I never knew just how far the network reaches… apparently at least as far as Islamabad!
What a reminder it was of how God has surrounded us with our own great cloud of witnesses here on earth to encourage us through this trial, to testify of His faithfulness to help us finish the race, just as we all know that in our daily walk we are joining with men and women throughout history who have believed God:
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”
That same chapter ends:
“Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our “God is a consuming fire.””
Let our determination to run this race, egged on by the cloud of witnesses God has provided, lead us straight to Jesus, and to His worship. Whatever the ups and downs, and whatever the future holds, I know it all holds together in Jesus. He is the coherence in this weird and wonderful plan!